I know this may sound bad and that I’m looking for attention but that is so far from the truth. The main reason I contemplate suicide is so that people do not have to deal with me anymore and I do not bother them. I always feel like I’m bothering someone when I talk to them. I like to be behind the scenes in everything I do as I get embarrassed when I’m honored for anything. I know it’s a compliment but I’d rather honor someone else. Have you ever tried really talking to someone and theyconstantly change the subject? That is how I feel when I talk to most people. I feel as if they are doing me a favor by talking to me. I’m sick and tired of fake people or people who only want to friend you in case you can do something for them. I’m a person too, so why do you take advantage of me? If you cut me I bleed just like you. If you hurt me I’ll cry but I’ll probably ever ever let you know that you made me cry. I still think people are out there to hurt others to make themselves feel better.