I do not nor can I ever thank you enough for your support. I’m in my late 40’s never married,no kids but love them. I regret not having kids but my last boyfriend never wanted kids so I should have accepted it. But I guess deep down being alone is how I’m meant to be. All of your kind thoughts and prayers are very much appreciated. I truly feel alone but it’s nice to see there are others like me. I cannot tell you how many times I have considered suicide as its so hard to find my real place in life. I guess I should also tell you I’m in a lot of pain due to Achilles tendon issues. So the thought of overdose is an easy one as I’ve got plenty of meds here. I jokingly said to my friend that I couldn’t even overdose right as I took a lot ofmeds the other day and woke up with a nasty headache. I’m just so confused on my purpose in life. All I know is that I need to be working with kids. Most of the kids I deal with are preschool to middle elementary aged children. I loved the suggestion of acting like a kid and just coloring. I’m told all the time that I’m a kid and my response is always the same, thank you. Reading all of your comments are so helpful I cannot even explain it in words. I’ve been in a bad place and funk for way too long. I’m not sure if it’s societal pressures or familial pressures. I need to figure out the best plan of action and follow through. Time to think and again my heart goes out to you with many thanks.
Thankfully trying to live