Dear holiday people,
I know most of you love this time of year, but it makes me crawl further into my shell. I feel so alone, depressed and unwanted this time of year. I’ve been told many times to start anew, start fresh and do what should be done. I’m so depressed I don’t even know what to do anymore. It’s so hard to be alone this time of year. Yes I’ve got friends who want me in their family and to join them but I’m just not in a social mood. I’m really not sure what to do or how to deal. I just don’t feel like doing anything and I don’t care to be with anyone. I need to focus on the good and positive but I just don’t know how to do it. I don’t feel as if I deserve anything good and I’m meant to be alone. I see myself alone and depressed if I can find a reason to be here. I’ve upset some true friends as I really can’t be in a social setting. My attitude needs to change and I’ve got to find value and meaning in life.
Sincerely yours, holiday hater