Holiday season

Dear holiday people,

I know most of you love this time of year, but it makes me crawl further into my shell.  I feel so alone, depressed and unwanted this time of year.  I’ve been told many times to start anew, start fresh and do what should be done.  I’m so depressed I don’t even know what to do anymore.  It’s so hard to be alone this time of year.  Yes I’ve got friends who want me in their family and to join them but I’m just not in a social mood.  I’m really not sure what to do or how to deal.  I just don’t feel like doing anything and I don’t care to be with anyone.  I need to focus on the good and positive but I just don’t know how to do it.  I don’t feel as if I deserve anything good and I’m meant to be alone.  I see myself alone and depressed if I can find a reason to be here.  I’ve upset some true friends as I really can’t be in a social setting.  My attitude needs to change and I’ve got to find value and meaning in life.  

Sincerely yours, holiday hater

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2 thoughts on “Holiday season

  1. Hi

    Have you started reading those books I recommended? They really are a great help.

    As for the holidays. Do what I do.

    I stopped going to friends and relatives years ago. I now volunteer at soup kitchens on both Thanksgiving and Christmas day. What’s nice about this is there are no family pressures. But the greatest benefit is helping to feed people less fortunate, to see the smiles on their faces, to get a kind “thank you” when I serve them. I’m just a server in all this, but it’s incredibly heartwarming knowing I’m giving someone a hot meal.

    As for being social with strangers, you don’t have to worry about that. Kitchens discourage interactions, especially initiating them. All because we don’t know how people will react to conversation. So, we just smile and hand them their food. It’s great.

    Check with your local soup kitchens to set up a schedule; some do both lunch and dinner. But they’re not the type of place where you can just drop by unannounced to help. If you contact them ahead of time, I’m certain they could use your help.

    Just think of how many people your kindness will touch, how it will make you feel. And when you smile at them, they will remember “the kind lady who gave us our food.” 🙂

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